That Balance

Dropped the kids off with their dad and my soul leaps up, “Freedom!” Darlin’ let’s jump in the truck and head out on a little adventure. Grab a coffee and a bowl and just drive… Beyond our current circumstances. I don’t want to go to the bank to pay my rent… I want to go the bank of a glorious river- let’s dip our toes in the freezing water. I don’t want to go train my brain to remember the contents of books. I want to remember holding your hand on a train booked to nowhere and back. I don’t want to return to my quiet kidless house- I miss them. I want to be in God’s house surrounded by lively silence. I don’t want to clear the clutter and make my bed. I want to make out with you under the stars on a clear crisp night.

My soul is restless. When they ask “Are you living life to the fullest?” I’d have to say, “No” because I am choosing to be temperant and responsible. But I want to be irresponsible! I want to be whisked away, swept off my feet, and sweetly loved…. When the kids are away. ISO… That balance.

Moments

Same ol’ same ol’ leads to living complacently.

To not living the joy of each moment patiently.

What I don’t want to do is live blindly each day.

Blindfolded in work, in family, in play… No way!

Blindfolded in the bedroom… Now we’re talkin’.

But if you want to take me for granted… Keep walkin’.

I like to grab life by the balls… And fondle ’em.

With spontaneity, adventure, and emotional freedom.

People fear change and uncertainty, but not me.

I face it head on with anticipated glee.

Don’t let my moments be monotonous and rote.

Give me hard work, a goal, and love… That’s my vote.

When others think it’s too difficult or crazy,

I see endless potential… My vision’s not hazy!

So when change or “not knowing” come my way,

I welcome them in… To pray then play!