I want to know your dark side.
Let me in!
Not so I can change you… That’s the last thing I mean to do.
Just let me in!!
To quietly sit next to you in the quicksand of your thoughts.
Let me sit in stillness… with silence… while you flail and kick and scream and struggle to get out of the traps you’ve set for yourself.
Let my presence in love reassure you that you are never alone.
That no matter how low you sink and how covered you are in muck…
Hope still exists!
Fighting only makes it worse… so let go.
You have to quiet your mind.
Let go of the struggle…
So that you can focus on the mustard seed lost in the millions of granules of shame, defeat, selfishness, and self-destruction.
When you are still, you’ll find that- somehow, someway- hope becomes magnified.
Let me send my love to lighten your way…
So you can finally see and claim what has been yours all along.
So that together, we can be free.
I just wish that I could talk to you. Especially during this time when I am flailing… grasping for thoughts that drift away too quickly. Your energy is my gravity so maybe if you were near, you’d ground these thoughts so that I could conclude… focus… ascertain this idea… so I look a little less crazy… a little less basic. Because there’s something there… I just know it! Except… you’re not here… so it all flutters away.
Beautiful soul appeasing me
Tell of your secrets so that I may see
What makes you tick? With whose heart do you click? Is seduction, or laughter, or apathy the trick?
Shattered heart confusing thee
Tell of distortions so that I can set you free
What makes you run? With whose mind are you spun? Is the torment you give some sort of fun?
Complex mind intriguing this devotee
Tell of your loops in the mental Grand Prix
What strangles your thoughts like a vine? With whose soul do you entwine? Is that connection divine?
Separation, distance, a disappearing love, moving forward, seeking guidance from above. I don’t want to go, I miss you more than you can know, I want you near always. I don’t want you as my “bro,” I want to be in your flow, I want to know you in all ways.